But it needs to. It really needs to.
I'm sick of keeping it a secret that I'm up all night coughing. I'm tired of not sleeping and not eating properly and telling everyone I'm fine when I am definitely not. I'm sick of the aches and pains and fatigue and headaches and the neverending loop of thoughts that's always in my head, always loud and never giving me a second's peace. I'm sick of being sick.
It takes a long time to get over pneumonia with the best care, and I didn't even stay in the hospital. I was told that I'd be clearing out my lungs for at least another few weeks after the worst was over, but I didn't know the other symptoms would stick. I haven't fallen asleep before 3 a.m. in weeks.
I'm going crazy. I need this to be over by now. I need to be back to how I used to be.
I need to be healthy again.
God only knows when that'll be.